Today was okay. By “okay”, I mean, “I am still here, and trying to manage myself. I woke up today. I showered. I cleaned quite a bit, which makes me feel good and proud of myself. I had a panic attack, took my shut-it-down medication. I took a nap, and finished a craft kit from Michael’s. So I feel good about today, more or less.”
I keep thinking about the fact that my last therapist directly told me, “no one will work with you if you are Borderline.”
That is not an acceptable statement to tell your patients: “No one will work with you if…”
That plays into the stigma on mental illness in general. I suppose it’s one thing to say something like that if you are an uneducated citizen, however, I now realize that if a licensed professional is educated properly, they will be happy to help.
So for anyone struggling with mental illness, or struggling with just finding good doctors, therapists, psychiatrists, etc: Do not stop seeking help, and please don’t give up on yourself.
There will always be someone who is willing to work with you.
My new psychiatrist was awesome at the first appointment. Something seems to working, so I am looking forward to our next appointment. I have to find a therapist, now, and that may be difficult, but I will start the search tomorrow.
I know that this could be a process. and I am finally ready.
Dear Casey, you’re doing just fine.
Life with Casey Leigh 