Today was a weird day. The day went by extremely slowly. I couldn’t focus on anything either. It’s kind of hard for me to even type this.

Anyway, did you know keyboarding is harder than it looks? Well for me it is. I have a hard time not looking at the keyboard. I should probably be doing math homework right now, too, but I’ll have all weekend.

Work is going okay. Sales is super difficult and I’m not sure I’m cut out for it. You’ve got to have this thing called “confidence”. Something of which I lack entirely. You also have to be good at talking to people. Another skill I seem to be missing. Sales is hard.

I’d say the best part about my job is working with amazing people. Although, my BPD has been getting the best of me recently. I keep having to tell myself, “they don’t hate you”. I have to reassure myself, because no one else will. Sometimes that’s just how it goes.

I’ve also been feeling my words getting stuck in my throat again. Not good. Like, when I want to say anything that matters to me, I can’t and I just stay quiet, because no one will actually understand where I’m coming from. Even if they do understand, they probably won’t care. That’s positive, right?

Like I said, today was a weird day. I’ll be okay. For now, My tablet is glitching, and so I’m off to watch the 100. If you’re reading this, you are loved<3